I just realized what my real personality is. I am human, mostly patient and kind to the people I love and respect. I mostly "take in" things that people throw on me, whatever it is I take it in. Might it be good or not I take it in but don't wait till I get fed off.
When I get fed off and felt so bad, I burst out my emotions and cry. Sometime people take advantage of my kindness. But sometimes I just so straight forward and express my feelings right there and then, it might be unkind sometimes but I have to show my true emotion before people will take advantage of my kindness again.
So help me GOD.

I am not scared of driving now, I even drive on the freeway on the speed of 70mph but I am careful cause I don't have a valid license yet. I only have my driving permit and the rules said, with the permit you can only drive when a person with valid driver's license accompanies you. But I have drove on the freeway many times alone hehehe, braking the rules.
I am looking forward on taking the road test this month because I am so eager to drive alone and go to the places by myself. Still, the funny thing was, I drive barefooted because I feel more comfortable on controlling the gas paddle.

Since I've worked I am helping my family financially. It is okay to me as long as I have enough money to give them and no pressure.
Parents should look for their children and not other way around, besides they are still young at 50. I hate it when they are like irresponsible and putting almost all the loads on my shoulder. I am now married and we are also facing our own financial crisis. Supposed they plan their life ahead and think of the future that money doesn't come easy and it's not good to asked from your children or relatives, they are irritating and I am ashamed of them.
I am paying for their health insurance and also sending my brother to college. Last year my father was hospitalized because of stroke. A very unexpected expenses and they expect me to shoulder it. My father is alcoholic and I hate it, we don't have money and he is so irresponsible of doing it. I borrowed our saving to sent to them so they will have capital for their store but I didn't know what happen less than a year later it was already gone. I have warned them to make profit of it because I can't sent them that much again. Now they are asking money again.
For God sake I am not rich here, and we have so many debts to pay here. I don't know I am tired of them, very tired of them.
I wish they are not my parents, I wish I have a responsible rich educated parents. I am really tired of them, I wish it will end soon, I'm giving up...They are not my responsibility. I hate my parents, I hate them now.

I add another college classmate of mine on fs, after 48 years she finally responded and guess what is her first message on my FS! She is asking me to give her friend an American chat mate! what the heck, she thinks I am a match maker or worse a PIMP?!
I hate it so much when they ask me that kind favors because they just think its that easy to tell people here if they want somebody from the Philippines and they never know that Modern Filipina has already a bad impression here in the US. They think that Filipina are hooker and marrying old man with only one purpose, to come to US, marrying American not for love but to have them as passport to US.
This is a stereotype accusation because not all Filipinas are marrying foreigners just to come here in the US. I bet there's still a big percentage who are marrying for love but it most cases it is obvious that they are marrying for stupid reason, which is so shameful to the Filipinos in general.

My husband and I have one friend who had recently went into divorce situation, actually the couple is our friend but we are more closer to the guy. When they still on he keeps asking me to hook him up to one of my friend and I take it as a joke because they seems happy together, but we never know until recently that two years before they officially separated they already have trouble, only one side of the story we hear but sounds like the girl is having an affair.
Well our guy friend is now asking me to hook him up with any of my friend back home, he wanted someone like me who takes care of the husband, a tame submissive girl, in short good girl. But every girl is different and I am not sure if my friends is ideal for him so I told him just visit Philippines and meet people and find his connection cause I don't wanna be blame if ever the relationship won't work on them.
He agreed though and he will be going to the Philippines on January but still asking me to inform my friend that he will be going and ask them to meet him, okay.

I am still a bit anxious when I am driving at the freeway but I have too, if given a chance I choose driving on hi-ways and avoid going out the freeway even it means it will took me a little longer to reach my destination. I know where are the busy merge and also avoiding it, I only drive on the freeway when husband is with me, I find freeway so demanding because I have to keep up with 60mph which I find a little disturbing lol. But I am happy cause now I can handle it.

When I was single I was notoriously known as "Heartless Girl" in the sense that I don't stay long in a relationship. Well I will depend myself here, I am not totally heartless, actually I am desperate of the real relationship and keep on praying that "Mr. Right" will soon show up and take me away.
My Philosophy before was "why should I hold on to a relationship where I can't see my future with that guy and I feel it right from the day I know him that we are not meant to be." I will never waste my time on that kind relationship so after couple weeks or months I cut it over. That's what my friends and co-workers did not understand, they take it as I'm a heartless woman who don't care about relationship and only playing around. But they never understood my point of view which is reasonable enough.
When I met my husband they said "ah oh hope she will settle now," well when I met my husband It's very much different from the rest. Though we both had feel the doubt but we also feel that we are meant to be. He is a nice guy and answer to my prayer. I am happy of having him, and we are getting stronger and going on four years and counting. Hope we will be even stronger and hold on to each other until our last breath.

My moms' family is on different religion than my dads' and ever since I can remember my dad's side is pulling me to their side but my dad said I follow my moms. As I am growing I was caught in between because I wanted to follow my dads' but I have the pressure of my moms' family which then lead me to be baptized in my moms religion.
I don't regret what I did on following my moms though it is not what my heart really wanted because I believe in "freedom of faith," as long as you are doing what you think is in God's will and God is always in your heart.
When growing up and exploring the world I discover the difference and what I really wanted to follow. Until know I appreciated all I have learned about God and the strong faith I have to my moms' religion but there are things that I can say I am not so into them. Can we just have faith in God and don't belong to any sect?
When my mom learned that I am now on my dad's side and loving it she simply said "I won't force my kids to be on what religion because it is not right, they have to choose where they want to belong as long as they are happy on their decision." On that said "I love you more momsy."
And now I encountered people here, same religion with my moms, and they can't understand that I am not interested and why they can't leave me alone. People have choice, if you came to them once twice and they still not interested, for God sake please leave them alone!
If you force people to your religion that's not good in my opinion. Give them freedom. If we choose not to follow on your religion please, we have our own life and our own thinking don't try on saving us in this earth because you are not even sure if your faith will save you and will gave you the second life you believe in.

I am now confident driving on highways but not on freeway yet, I still have to practice more on parallel and parking though I am a bit good on reverse parking. But on the road, well I am enjoying it know, a little bit hesitant but much better. Hubby's comment is I am good on the road in fact he is already confident on me driving on highway. I am happy because I gained back my driving skill and I make my husband happy. Oh I made him happy and not, "happy" because I now drive my own truck and "not" because he is scared that I might have my own road trip when he is working, meaning I will drive myself anywhere I wish to go. hahaha which is somewhat true.

Last year I had a light accident with my truck, I wasn't hurt though but I badly damage the fender. Since then I really get scared of the wheel, after a year now I am recovering and gaining back my confidence. It's been couple months now that I am bugging my husband to come with me when I practice back my driving skills. At first I was like scared because my husband has a big mouth but then I did it, I am driving good but still I am not so good on parking especially parallel parking. My husband keeps on pushing me to practice parallel parking and I hate being push, he is just making me nervous. I have learned that I am a little defensive driver which sometimes not good, but I am happy to gain back my confidence and that's enough for now.

"Thing happened with a reason." When I first meet my husband I know he is the one but I don't know why. We have been in a long distance relationship that tested our Trust, patience and Love but also leave us with question "will this relationship work?
We finally back in each other arms and work hard to make the relationship work. We face so many adjustments and situations that need to be understood and live with it. In our first year it seem a little rocky but we made it worked and now I am proud to say we have less complication.
It just seem that things are working out really well and smoothly. I cannot imagine myself without my husband. He is the best man in my life.
He is working so late this days, arriving home at almost midnight and I am waiting for him the whole day and until late night and it makes me realized how much I need and miss him. =)

Our family relationship is one in millions "troubled siblings." I found it funny that even you are blood related but you have the bigger chances in having conflict with your family members. I know and see that there are mother and daughter issues, father and son and of course sibling rivalry or conflicts. Although we are blood related but we have different personalities, life principles and our own way of thinking and we are making our own life.
My brother and I literally have many things in common especially in our way of thinking. But my sister has her own world and her own thinking that sometimes it made me wondering with question "is she really my sister?"
What ever decisions she made in her life and the path she choose to follow, all I am hoping that she will be happy, successful, and will be contented on it. As I always remind her, it’s her life and it’s her choice. Whatever she chooses, she had to deal with it and never blame anyone else because that's her choice and she is the one making her future.
I admit I am not in good terms with her though I still feel for her but I believe that I have to let her go as a person so she can learn from her mistakes and realized that it's her journey, not mine. She had to face it by herself and stomach whatever its outcome. God Bless her.

You have an overwhelming feeling when you connect back to your long lost friends, schoolmates and classmates, former neighbors, in short "your past acquaintance."
In most cases they would not recognized you at first after more than 10 years of lost communication. Some can be your true good friend and some remain to be just "acquaintance." And the part that I hate most is when they turn to be your "friend with benefit". Like they are exerting effort to be so close to you and be your nice friend but wait a couple months and you will see that they are just after of something.
For instance, this person happened to be one of my school batch mates and I just reconnect with him online after 14 long empty years. Of course I trust him 50%, though I never thought he will turn like that, but right after couple of months he strain the communication by asking money from me which really turned me off. He now belongs on my long list of "friends with benefit or opportunistic".
My point is, money can "strain" any good relationship or friendship, IF, you know he's not in need and its plainly opportunistic move. It's okay when he badly needs it, but they are a little well off with secured jobs. Another reason is we are not related and I just know him because he happened to be my batch mate long long time ago and we're not even close those days. Then he have the nerve to ask money from me? lets say it's a joke (I'll take it) but hello, boy oh boy, it's a turn off move, a very very BAD move. I am willing to spare CASH "IF" the person badly needs it not just taking opportunity.