I just realized what my real personality is. I am human, mostly patient and kind to the people I love and respect. I mostly "take in" things that people throw on me, whatever it is I take it in. Might it be good or not I take it in but don't wait till I get fed off.
When I get fed off and felt so bad, I burst out my emotions and cry. Sometime people take advantage of my kindness. But sometimes I just so straight forward and express my feelings right there and then, it might be unkind sometimes but I have to show my true emotion before people will take advantage of my kindness again.
So help me GOD.

I am not scared of driving now, I even drive on the freeway on the speed of 70mph but I am careful cause I don't have a valid license yet. I only have my driving permit and the rules said, with the permit you can only drive when a person with valid driver's license accompanies you. But I have drove on the freeway many times alone hehehe, braking the rules.
I am looking forward on taking the road test this month because I am so eager to drive alone and go to the places by myself. Still, the funny thing was, I drive barefooted because I feel more comfortable on controlling the gas paddle.

Since I've worked I am helping my family financially. It is okay to me as long as I have enough money to give them and no pressure.
Parents should look for their children and not other way around, besides they are still young at 50. I hate it when they are like irresponsible and putting almost all the loads on my shoulder. I am now married and we are also facing our own financial crisis. Supposed they plan their life ahead and think of the future that money doesn't come easy and it's not good to asked from your children or relatives, they are irritating and I am ashamed of them.
I am paying for their health insurance and also sending my brother to college. Last year my father was hospitalized because of stroke. A very unexpected expenses and they expect me to shoulder it. My father is alcoholic and I hate it, we don't have money and he is so irresponsible of doing it. I borrowed our saving to sent to them so they will have capital for their store but I didn't know what happen less than a year later it was already gone. I have warned them to make profit of it because I can't sent them that much again. Now they are asking money again.
For God sake I am not rich here, and we have so many debts to pay here. I don't know I am tired of them, very tired of them.
I wish they are not my parents, I wish I have a responsible rich educated parents. I am really tired of them, I wish it will end soon, I'm giving up...They are not my responsibility. I hate my parents, I hate them now.

I add another college classmate of mine on fs, after 48 years she finally responded and guess what is her first message on my FS! She is asking me to give her friend an American chat mate! what the heck, she thinks I am a match maker or worse a PIMP?!
I hate it so much when they ask me that kind favors because they just think its that easy to tell people here if they want somebody from the Philippines and they never know that Modern Filipina has already a bad impression here in the US. They think that Filipina are hooker and marrying old man with only one purpose, to come to US, marrying American not for love but to have them as passport to US.
This is a stereotype accusation because not all Filipinas are marrying foreigners just to come here in the US. I bet there's still a big percentage who are marrying for love but it most cases it is obvious that they are marrying for stupid reason, which is so shameful to the Filipinos in general.

My husband and I have one friend who had recently went into divorce situation, actually the couple is our friend but we are more closer to the guy. When they still on he keeps asking me to hook him up to one of my friend and I take it as a joke because they seems happy together, but we never know until recently that two years before they officially separated they already have trouble, only one side of the story we hear but sounds like the girl is having an affair.
Well our guy friend is now asking me to hook him up with any of my friend back home, he wanted someone like me who takes care of the husband, a tame submissive girl, in short good girl. But every girl is different and I am not sure if my friends is ideal for him so I told him just visit Philippines and meet people and find his connection cause I don't wanna be blame if ever the relationship won't work on them.
He agreed though and he will be going to the Philippines on January but still asking me to inform my friend that he will be going and ask them to meet him, okay.

I am still a bit anxious when I am driving at the freeway but I have too, if given a chance I choose driving on hi-ways and avoid going out the freeway even it means it will took me a little longer to reach my destination. I know where are the busy merge and also avoiding it, I only drive on the freeway when husband is with me, I find freeway so demanding because I have to keep up with 60mph which I find a little disturbing lol. But I am happy cause now I can handle it.

When I was single I was notoriously known as "Heartless Girl" in the sense that I don't stay long in a relationship. Well I will depend myself here, I am not totally heartless, actually I am desperate of the real relationship and keep on praying that "Mr. Right" will soon show up and take me away.
My Philosophy before was "why should I hold on to a relationship where I can't see my future with that guy and I feel it right from the day I know him that we are not meant to be." I will never waste my time on that kind relationship so after couple weeks or months I cut it over. That's what my friends and co-workers did not understand, they take it as I'm a heartless woman who don't care about relationship and only playing around. But they never understood my point of view which is reasonable enough.
When I met my husband they said "ah oh hope she will settle now," well when I met my husband It's very much different from the rest. Though we both had feel the doubt but we also feel that we are meant to be. He is a nice guy and answer to my prayer. I am happy of having him, and we are getting stronger and going on four years and counting. Hope we will be even stronger and hold on to each other until our last breath.